Not happening Love!

“It’s a wrong number” Said a voice from the other end. But are they really wrong? That’s the irony when you hear these words from familiar voices. You never think that things would go wrong. You create that perfect world of yours. Even after knowing hundreds of flaws in that person, you convince yourself that they are best for you. All those one liners “Live life on your own terms”, “Be your own hero first” “Its my life” are replaced by “Love needs sacrifice” “You need to be selfless and think of your love” “all it takes is a lil compromise to create beautiful relationship”.

You start loving someone so deeply that you forget to love yourself. And when the hitch comes suddenly the rainbow becomes black & white?

All those feelings that blended you with another soul are now two tones? And you are now at a path where you see them as right or wrong. Now you realize that it was your heart when you fell and now suddenly your brain is activated and giving you some wisdom advises.

The truth is you either start finding options & realize that oh! It can be much better. Or you start suffocating yourself with the flaws and loopholes in your “Once so cute” Relationship. In all these whirlpool going on you just forget one thing that was the base of everything “LOVE”. Which by now have become so tiny detail that you can hardly notice it in all that chaos.

And then comes the part where your endless talks in night turns to blue ticks with no replies. You start giving excuses to yourself that it’s to avoid fights. Though you know it’s YOU who have lost this essence of love. And then gradually the person you can’t live without becomes the person you can’t tolerate the presence of. You try your best to shatter them to find solace.

Hitting it hard again and again. Or you come to a stage where you convince the child in your mind saying that “No one was at fault, the fault was in our stars” and Come on! It has to be true because it was the bestselling book and highest grossing movie!

But why don’t we realize. The fault is within ourselves. It takes a fraction of second to kiss someone and say I love you. Because that’s what has to happen according to the plan, according to all epic and eternal love stories.

I hope someday we realize that those are their love stories and we are supposed to write our own.

Because ladies kissing frogs won’t turn them to be your prince charming and gentlemen there is no way Cinderella is going to leave a Gimmy choo and walk home barefoot after party.

-Apoorva

XOXO